Thursday, May 29, 2008

Birds are singing to calm us down.

Daily thoughts-
Today has been a good day. I did well on a Hamlet test, and though it was given, Its still a mood-booster. I got to see my best friend, and another good friend. Grad is tommorrow, and in all honest truth, I think I'd rather have Alex there than anyone else, because she understands how I feel simply by how I am acting, and I dunno. I just love her.
One of the biggest things that happened to me today though was me getting my camera. I'm so seriously stoked on it, so don't be suprised if all of a sudden you start seeing alot more of my terrible snapshots.

Alex: Why isn't this working? I'm getting you a new cellphone.
Julia: Maybe you should get yourself a cell phone first?
Alex: I'll just get us a couples plan.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Your birth is a mistake that you spend your entire life trying to correct.

I want you to have everything.
And I know, you get what you get,
and I'll get what I deserve.


Vindication is not unknown to me,
Vengence is no strange shadow in my doorway.

They want to run through the air with no barriers or obstacles.

Don't try and tell me who I am.
Don't try and tell me how I feel.
Don't try and tell me what my life is like.
You have no idea. I don't judge you.

Everyone's rock bottom comes at a different point.
But have I ever left, or am I just bouncing off of the sides down here?

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Time running.

I hate my past,
I'm wasting my present,
and I'm scared of my future,
so when does that leave me?

These things happen.

“Young people, they want the whole world.”
Deliver me from Swedish furniture.
Deliver me from clever art.
And the phone rang, and Tyler answered.
“If you don’t know what you want,” The Doorman said, “you end up with a lot you don’t”
May I never be complete.
May I never be content.
May I never be perfect.
Deliver me, Tyler, from being perfect and complete.
Tyler and I agreed to meet at a bar.
The Doorman asked for a number where the police could reach me. It was still raining. My Audi was still parked in the lot, but a Dakapo halogen torchiere was speared through the windshield.
Tyler and I, we met and drank a lot of beer, and Tyler said yes, I could move in with him, but I would have to do him a favor.
The next day, my suitcase would arrive with the mare minimum, six shirts, six pairs of underwear.
There, drunk in a bar where no one was watching, and no one would care, I asked Tyler what he wanted me to do.
Tyler said, “I want you to hit me as hard as you can.”


The gods he believes never fail to amaze me.

Monday, May 26, 2008

The world that has made us can no longer contain us.

Though it's been so very long,
I sing, raindrops falling on my head.
In a town thats cold and grey, we will have a sunny day.
Don't you know that I belong arm in arm with you baby?



Stand up straight. Do your trick, turn on the stars.

Sometimes you have to start clean, you have to begin, not begin again.

I 'm just writing to tell you, you're beautiful.
I've faced death, but instead I chose you. I chose love.
Thank you, you saved my life, you saved my sanity.
But this is all I owe you. My slate is clean.


Sunday, May 25, 2008

February, get ink, shed tears. Write of it, sob your heart out, sing. While torrential slush that roars, burns in the blackness of spring.

I can ride a bike with no handlebars...

I can also play pool apparently.
Tonight was so fucking dope. Both chillin' with the crew and meeting some new people, and not having people so completely fucking drunk that I want to hit them. No pictures to follow, because I was having too much fun to take any, but I love my boys and girls with all my heart.
Goodnight world.
<3

Saturday, May 24, 2008

If you could be god's worst enemy or nothing, which would you choose?

Sometimes I wonder if your teenage years are just a test to see if you are able to survive adulthood. Then I wonder if I'm passing.

You think this is hard? Just wait for the future.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

I am no good for you, I'm seeing ghosts in everything I do.

Don't do what you want. Do what you don't want. Do what you're trained not to want. Do the things that scare you the most. Find out what you're afraid of and go live there.

The past while I've spent standing still, despite my mental exhaustion I refused to give into the demands of my sanity. Instead I stood with my feet glued to the ground and my mouth glued shut, hurting myself more than you ever could, the anticipation hurt more than your words ever could. Five minutes of cleansing, five minutes of thought, five minutes of composure, five minutes is all it took for me to realize that if you can give this up, then so can I. I can smile, and I can move on quickly. I'm not going to fight to keep you if you don't want me to, which you obviously dont, so we can have our time and we can keep the scraps of paper of what's left behind. It may not be the same idea, but hands down, I love you forever.

We will vacation and you will be my parasol: Sylvan.






























Everyone inside the mechanism is yearning to get out.

So, I haven't been around for a while. My bad, I know.
Alot has gone down over the past...uh...two weeks? Or whatever. I don't know.
I spent the last weekend in Sylvan lake, just kind of chillin' with some of the girls (for once).
Pics to follow, but this computer is being a DB and it won't let me put them up.
GAYYYY. But I did put up some New links, pretty much just linking you to my myspace and to Laura Kathleen Productions, which is Laura, a photographer, and pretty much the best person you'll ever meet, Lainey Gossip, queen at feeding my gossip addictions, as well as I've hooked you up with some sweet music. Because who doesen't love sweet music?
Anyways...

Summary of our girls weekend(in a bunch of inside jokes that you'll NEVER understand):
jolanda + crystal + molly = dope names.
YAGERBOMBSYAGERBOMBSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!
titz 4 hitz.
I CAN RIDE MY BIKE WITH NO HANDLEBARS.
suntanning, aka burninggggg.
26 of rum.
40 of gin.
pilsner.
Hotboxing the bathroom.
SOCIABLES.
BATHROOM CARDS FOR SRSLY.
Stacy running into every bar possible.
Randoms coming into the hotel room.
PLAYAHPLAYUHHHHHHH.
Forrest Gump.
SMILE WITH YOUR EYES.
HEY GIRLL HEYYYYYY
talking at 4am.
sk8er boizzzzzzz.
4 minutes to save the worrlldddddd.
STFU AND THEN ORGASMMMMMM

Also, Random thoughts:
My mouse is sticking and it won't highlight shit properly.
I pay like, a gajillion dollars a year to go to this school. You'd think they'd be able to afford a decent mouse.
Also, last night my wireless mouse died AGAIN. And guess who had to rob her camera of her batteries in order to replace them.
OH YEAH.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

We don't know so we wait for tommorrow.

So I realized that I take the cake for DuhFace of the year in deleting all of my old entries when I restarted this blog. Well, dumb me. Whatever.
The rest of the pictures from Edmonton are coming soon! I promissseeeee, but in the meantime, New list!

10 things that I like (That you should too):
1. 80s Movie quoteoffs
2. Club Sternum
3. Ice Cream
4. Urban Outfitters
5. Road Trips
6. Long Weekends
7. Trampolines
8. Thrift Shopping
9. Jazz Music
10. Classic Novels.

Monday, May 12, 2008

We're so pretty, oh so pretty : Club Sternum Tackles Edmonton.



































So, Edmonton was a blast, though moods got up at times.
But for the most part, here you go.