You get what you get and you don't get upset.

Summer is coming. The city is changing and so am I. I've been trying to make a point lately of doing things that I feel would make me a better person. I'm trying to not be as narcissistic. I'm trying not to be as self-involved. I'm trying not to play with people's feelings and emotions anymore. I've realized that these are not my toys, I've realized that I was just as bad as, if not worse, than the people who have hurt me doing so in the past. I'm trying to pay attention to those that need it, the people that put a smile on my face, regardless of what mood I was in before I started talking to them. In doing so I'm taking my time away from the people that I feel don't deserve anything from me. I've become productive, instead of destructive. I've started trying to do little things for people, the type of things that they remember, and the type of things where I expect nothing in return. Kindness is not about keeping score. I've stopped looking so far into the future, and started living with what I have. I find myself being happier. I find myself making decisions, instead of being cold and indecisive. I find myself having more certianty than I have ever had before in my life. Ever.