When I look to the sky it's not mine, but I want it so.

Lately I've been doing a lot of nothing. I go to school, go to work, and hang out around my house. I guess lately I've just not felt much like socializing, and I have a hunch as to what triggered this behaviour, but I'm not going to disclose it. Lets just say it has something to do with a boy that I'll probably never ever call mine. During spells like these it seems like everything on TV is the most depressing stuff ever. Like, Grey's Anatomy has gotten all sad, Flashpoint tonight was sad, Criminal Minds has been sad. This is something that I don't want to admit to ever watching, but hell, even Hannah Montana lately has been depressing. (I have an 11 year old sister, okay!) It doesn't help that every song I listen to seems to ring with nostalgia, or that the other things that I used to do to make me happy just seem to be flat out boring lately. I need something in my life to spice things up, but that idea always seems to bring disaster. I've even had major problems sleeping lately. Not getting to sleep until 2 and waking up at 4 doesn't seem to have a good effect on my mood or outlook.